Fireflies

Last night my daughter and I walked to the mailbox, it was around 9:30 PM. I wanted to show her the long way around that I usually walk in the mornings that takes me to a view of a blue heron that is usually fishing for its breakfast. It hasn’t been there in the last…

Doctor Foster

If you have been cheated on, you should watch Doctor Foster.   The first season was a bit triggering.  The second series is now available on Netflix, and it is two years later.  So far in the first episode, the ex-husband is as much as a cheating prick as before.  He comes back from being away…

Anxiety/Panic and Making A Fool Out of Myself

According to this website, I probably had an anxiety attack instead of a panic attack, although my physical symptoms at that moment were more aligned with those of a panic attack.  Both have been foreign to me, even though I am familiar with anxiety somewhat.  Actually, I believe it is in my DNA to be…

All Is Not Fair With Infidelity

I hate how needy I can be.  I also hate the blatant sexism that I see on “Infidelity” blogs.  Of course women can and have been cheaters.  However, I’m willing to bet that more men are cheaters than women are.  What makes it even more devastating is how more men are the breadwinners, thus, leaving…

Adulterer Tax

For many people 42 means the answer to Life, the Universe, and Everything else.  That is, if you are a fan of the Hitchhiker’s Guide to the Galaxy. To others, it is the amount of the Visa gift card given to a sidelined teenage-son from an insensitive asshole.   How or why would the amount be…

Alimony and Wage Garnishment

My divorce was final in September 2017. Although it was stated in the divorce decree that I am to receive alimony each week, I have yet to receive one red cent. Here it is going on February 2018. I knew this would happen. That is why I refused to accept any settlement unless wage garnishment…

“So Much Wasted Time”

Supposedly, David Cassidy’s last words were ,“So much wasted time.” I feel time, acutely.  Every minute of every hour of every day, I worry about the time.  I worry if I did enough each hour to prepare each day for the day that we can move forward.  I worry if I did enough each day…

Worst Grandpa EVER! Shouldn’t Be Able to Vote

As I continue to purge the house to get ready to move, periodically I find little items that help me exercise my rage. I chucked the mug in the picture out the back door. Initially it didn’t break so I had to keep rage-throwing it to the very back of the lot until it was…

Charity Shop

Unbelievable! The home wrecking whore’s mother owns and runs a charity shop that is supposedly for the benefit of underprivileged children. You cannot make this stuff up! The whore, who was complicit in aiding and abetting the cheater grew up around her mother (and father), who for the last forty-five years peddled the necessity of…

Breadwinners and Power, Control, and Entitlement

As a divorcing woman, I can honestly say I am in no position to think about men, –not dating them, not having sex with them, nothing. I’m quite sure it’s projection, but when I see men in public, I roll my eyes when I believe that they think that I’m interested in talking to them….